I admit it…..I have been struggling as of late.

I have seen God move.  I have seen things exploding all around me only to suddenly see things kind of take a step backwards.

I was actually depressed a few days ago, which is something that never happens to me.  I have always had a really good ability to identify what is going on in my brain, and depression is one of those things I have always been able to pick up on right away……  It happened the other day. 

I realized I was depressed and started asking myslelf why and worked to get to the root of what is throwing me off my usual self.

Of late, I have put a lot of pressure on myself.  I have seen God moving is powerful ways, only to see things tail off just a bit.  The question is, why was I taking it personally and allowing myself to think the problem was me and that I was doing something wrong?

God is doing something.  It is ever apparent.  If I was so sure that he was steering the ship when things were going the way I liked, why do I automatically take Him out of the driver’s seat when things look a little bleek? 

The quick answer is a lack of faith.

Others might say that people who take all the credit when things go well, also have a tendency to take all the blame when things go bad…..

My guess is that I am a victim of a little of both.

When you hear enough people talk about how “great” things are, and how “great” the part of the ministry you are in charge of is, it is very very easy to secretly allow yourself to believe that you have more to do with what is going on than God does…..

The reality is, everyone is replaceable.  If it is God’s plan, truly Him behind it, then it is going to happen regardless of who is doing the work.  All we can do is obey and serve with a humble heart.

So it is time to trust in Him, give Him the glory and have faith that He is in control and has a better plan than the one I have in my feeble brain.

~jfm3~

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